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The Small Moments That Teach Us to Distrust Ourselves

The eating, the anxiety, the preoccupation: so often a scream from a body that first learned to whisper. How thousands of small moments teach us to look away from our own signals, and the gentle experiments that begin to rebuild that trust.

Schema & patterns·Jun 4, 2026·7 min read
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Can't Believe I'm Saying This: I Agreed with Jillian Michaels (On Some Things)

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What Was Really Behind My Need for Control During My Eating Disorder

An imagined conversation with my past self about boundaries, and (Do Not) Let Them Theory

Mar 12, 2026Read
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Holiday Season Survival Tips from Inside the Therapy Room

Things I've heard myself repeat the past sessions, shared with you

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The Small Moments That Teach Us to Distrust Ourselves

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Mar 12, 2026Read
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The Things You Weren’t Allowed to Do as a Child—Now Repressed Through Disordered Eating

This blog post might surprise you if you’re expecting me to say something along the lines of “Your food was restricted” or “You weren’t allowed to have…

Oct 9, 2025Read
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I Went on a Retreat and It Wrecked My Body Image

Here’s what really happened (Spoiler: It wasn't about my body)

Sep 18, 2025Read

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Schema & Patterns7 min

The Small Moments That Teach Us to Distrust Ourselves

before the scream, there was a whisper

Jun 4, 2026Read
Culture & Media18 min

Can't Believe I'm Saying This: I Agreed with Jillian Michaels (On Some Things)

Jubilee video: Surrounded, Jillian Michaels vs. Body Positivity Movement

Apr 30, 2026Read
Schema & Patterns6 min

What Was Really Behind My Need for Control During My Eating Disorder

An imagined conversation with my past self about boundaries, and (Do Not) Let Them Theory

Mar 12, 2026Read
Recovery7 min

Holiday Season Survival Tips from Inside the Therapy Room

Things I've heard myself repeat the past sessions, shared with you

Dec 18, 2025Read
Schema & Patterns7 min

The Things You Weren’t Allowed to Do as a Child—Now Repressed Through Disordered Eating

This blog post might surprise you if you’re expecting me to say something along the lines of “Your food was restricted” or “You weren’t allowed to have…

Oct 9, 2025Read
Body Image8 min

I Went on a Retreat and It Wrecked My Body Image

Here’s what really happened (Spoiler: It wasn't about my body)

Sep 18, 2025Read
Culture & Media13 min

Body Autonomy Meets Social Media: #SkinnyTok

From Body Positivity to SkinnyTok: What Happened to Balance?

May 1, 2025Read
Culture & Media13 min

The Substance: A Haunting Reflection on Perfection and Self-Hatred

On the unrelenting pursuit of being enough

Dec 5, 2024Read
Recovery6 min

Dealing With Setbacks in Eating Disorder Recovery

Working as an eating disorder therapist grants me the privilege to accompany people through their deeply personal journey towards recovery. When starts…

Sep 19, 2024Read
Recovery7 min

How Eating Disorders Influence Friendships

Eating disorders are much more than just a pursuit of thinness. They are a complex illness of the mind that not only affects your body but also impacts…

Sep 5, 2024Read
Culture & Media6 min

The Dark Side of Before & After Pictures: A Therapist's Perspective

Unpacking the Problem with Before & After Photos

Aug 22, 2024Read
Culture & Media9 min

Lessons from 'Inside Out 2': Embracing Emotions and the Power of Vulnerability

Insights on Emotional Health and Connection from a Therapist's Perspective

Jul 18, 2024Read
Food & Eating8 min

Can You Really Be 'Addicted' to Food?

Why you're probably NOT addicted to food

Jul 11, 2024Read
Recovery5 min

It's Time to Say "Thank You" to your Eating Disorder (then "Goodbye!")

Can you see your eating disorder in a new light?

Jun 30, 2024Read
Body Image6 min

Body Positivity vs. Body Neutrality - And Why I LOVE The Latter

As an eating disorder therapist, here is my interpretation of body positivity vs. neutrality

Jun 5, 2024Read
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Body Image7 min

What is Body Checking? And How to Stop Doing It.

What body checking actually is, the unmet needs that drive it, and how to begin loosening its grip.

May 19, 2024Read
Recovery8 min

Feeling Worse in Eating Disorder Recovery? This is normal!

As a therapist, let me explain why it will take some time to actually feel better

May 12, 2024Read
Recovery7 min

Losing Weight Will Not Cure Your Eating Disorder

Let me explain why weight loss does not cure eating disorders, as an eating disorder therapist

Apr 25, 2024Read
Recovery6 min

Letting Go of Your 'Skinny Identity': A Challenge in Eating Disorder Recovery

As an eating disorder therapist, I frequently encounter a dilemma voiced by my clients: “ I want to recover but I also want to lose the weight. Do I have…

Apr 11, 2024Read
Realistic Body Therapist
Body Image8 min

Tips for Dealing With Bad Body Image Days From An ED Therapist

Struggling with body image today? Here are some practical tips

Mar 21, 2024Read
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Recovery11 min

Saying ‘Yes’ to the Dress and Myself in ED Recovery

How to deal with anxiety of fitting into your wedding dress in ED recovery

Jan 25, 2024Read
Recovery7 min

Surviving The Season: A Supportive Guide for Individuals With Eating Disorders During Holidays

Typical situations we find ourselves in, how to set boundaries and take care of your mental health, how family members can provide meaningful help

Dec 22, 2023Read
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Recovery6 min

Therapeutic Tango: Recognizing Signs of Mismatch in Eating Disorder Therapy

Understanding and Overcoming Misalignment in Your Therapeutic Relationship with Your Therapist

Dec 15, 2023Read
Schema & Patterns4 min

The Shapeshifter: Demanding Eating Disorder Voice in Recovery

It was one of those days that I dreaded going to therapy. The worry that I have nothing to say had started, alongside the anxiety of the session…

Nov 30, 2023Read
Culture & Media3 min

What Is Fat Talk? And Why Is It So Harmful?

Fat talk is a term first coined by Nichter  & Vuckovic (1994). It is similar to diet talk, which is having conversations about dieting or excessive…

May 26, 2022Read
Culture & Media3 min

Eating Disorders in Movies & TV Shows

The first time I was visually exposed to an eating disorder was when I started watching the famous British TV series - Skins. One of the main characters,…

May 20, 2022Read
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Recovery4 min

How Eating Disorders Influence Your Romantic Relationships

My eating disorder caused havoc on various aspects of my life: my academic achievements, relationships with family, and friends. But above all, my…

May 12, 2022Read
Food & Eating3 min

Why You Can't Stop Thinking About Food

Explained by the Rebound Effect

Apr 28, 2022Read
Food & Eating3 min

The Desire to Feel Normal Around Food

When I first became aware of my body, I did not feel good about it. I decided to work out to feel better about myself. At first, I wanted to be fit. So, I…

Apr 21, 2022Read
Food & Eating5 min

''I can't stop dieting just like that, I will gain so much weight!''

What will actually happen if you stopped dieting ''just like that''

Apr 8, 2022Read
Body Image5 min

Dealing With Weight Gain

Three tips I use to deal with weight gain

Mar 31, 2022Read
Body Image4 min

Why Compliments On Weight Loss Make Us Feel Worse

When commenting on someone who has lost weight, the assumption is that the comment will be taken as a flattering remark. This is the result of the…

Mar 18, 2022Read
Food & Eating3 min

Why Tips For Avoiding Binges Never Work

Why practical tips are not helpful for binge eating in the long-term and the importance of schemas in eating disorder therapy

Mar 10, 2022Read
Body Image4 min

''I Cannot Trust What I See In The Mirror!''

The terrifying feeling of body dysmorphia

Mar 3, 2022Read
Food & Eating4 min

How To Stop Counting Calories

Tips from an ex-full time calorie counter

Feb 25, 2022Read
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Recovery4 min

Helping Your Child With An Eating Disorder

1. Be aware that their situation is not about you. It can be tough to accept that someone you love is hurting, especially if it is your child. It might…

Feb 17, 2022Read
Schema & Patterns4 min

Competition in Eating Disorders

A competition that has no winners

Feb 11, 2022Read
Culture & Media4 min

The Thin Line Between Eating Disorders and Fitness

What differentiates someone who is a gym rat from someone with an eating disorder?

Feb 3, 2022Read
Schema & Patterns9 min

Schema Modes in Eating Disorders

What are schema modes? And how do they relate to eating disorders?

Jan 30, 2022Read
Personal Essays4 min

What Living with an Eating Disorder Feels Like

TRIGGER WARNING. This is what my average day looked like, as a person who was struggling with bulimia nervosa.

Jan 20, 2022Read
Food & Eating4 min

How I Deal With Binges

How I manage my binge episodes as a recovered person

Jan 14, 2022Read
Schema & Patterns4 min

Challenging Your Common Eating Disorder Thoughts

Struggling with your ED thoughts? Let me challenge them!

Jan 6, 2022Read
Recovery4 min

Eating Disorders During Covid-19

Tips to help you deal with your eating disorder during the pandemic

Dec 30, 2021Read
Recovery5 min

Survival Guide: Holiday Season with Eating Disorders

It’s the most beautiful time of the year! The weather is icy-cold, beautifully decorated pine trees are exhibited through the windows of neighbours,…

Dec 23, 2021Read
Body Image3 min

The Function of Bad Body Image Days

Why do we have bad body image days

Dec 16, 2021Read
Recovery4 min

Recover Not For “Them” But For Yourself!

Recovery starts with being honest with yourself

Dec 9, 2021Read
Culture & Media3 min

The Problem with ‘‘What I Eat in A Day’’ Posts

Why I'm not interested in what other people eat in a day

Dec 2, 2021Read
Food & Eating4 min

Making Peace with Feeling “Full”

I was at a big family dinner last week. We ate, drank, and talked for hours. As a family, we love eating good quality food and having loved ones around to…

Nov 25, 2021Read
Culture & Media6 min

(Role)Models

Can models be our role models?

Oct 24, 2021Read
Culture & Media5 min

5 Common Diet Culture Trends That Have To Stop NOW!

1. Weight loss success stories Reading about other people’s weight loss journeys, looking at their before & after pictures might be motivating. Some…

Oct 17, 2021Read
Recovery8 min

The Truth About Exercising in Recovery

Is exercise really always healthy?

Oct 10, 2021Read
Recovery7 min

Common Feelings in Eating Disorder Recovery

You are not the only one!

Oct 3, 2021Read
Personal Essays10 min

Different Phases of My Eating Disorder

Trigger warning! If you recognize yourself in any of these phases, please seek help

Sep 19, 2021Read
Recovery6 min

How to Tell Someone About Your Eating Disorder

Here are some tips that can help you through the process

Aug 29, 2021Read
Recovery6 min

Triggering Yourself on Purpose

Why do we knowingly, willingly trigger ourselves when we know that it will make us feel worse?

Aug 22, 2021Read
Recovery7 min

Helping Your Partner with an Eating Disorder

Here is what you can do as a concerned partner

Aug 15, 2021Read
Recovery7 min

9 Things You Should Never Say to Someone with an Eating Disorder

Why they are harmful and what you can say instead

Aug 1, 2021Read
Food & Eating6 min

Diet Talk

Diet talk is everywhere. Here is how you can deal with it

Jul 18, 2021Read
Food & Eating7 min

Feeling Guilty For Not Dieting

When the guilt of not dieting hits you randomly

Jul 11, 2021Read
Recovery5 min

Do I Even Want to Recover from My Eating Disorder?

''I want recovery but I also want to get more sick''

Jun 27, 2021Read
Personal Essays8 min

How My Eating Disorder Made Me Lonely

Social isolation in eating disorders: how it's formed and maintained, explained by the concept of operant conditioning by Skinner

Jun 20, 2021Read
Food & Eating8 min

How to Love Food (Again)

Loving Food After Your Eating Disorder Recovery

Jun 6, 2021Read
Food & Eating6 min

Why You Shouldn't Worry about your ''Quarantine-15''

Read this if you have gained weight during quarantine

May 23, 2021Read
Recovery6 min

An Open Letter to All Parents

What your kid wants you to know

May 9, 2021Read
Recovery8 min

Lies My Eating Disorder Told Me

Newsletter issue #6

May 2, 2021Read
Food & Eating7 min

I Binged Nearly Everyday This Week - Here's Why

Newsletter issue #5

Apr 25, 2021Read
Recovery5 min

I Miss My Eating Disorder

Newsletter issue #4

Apr 18, 2021Read
Schema & Patterns8 min

Cognitive Distortions in Eating Disorders

Based on Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (Newsletter #3)

Apr 11, 2021Read
Food & Eating10 min

The Diet & Binge Cycle - Where to Interfere?

Newsletter issue #2

Apr 4, 2021Read
Body Image10 min

How I Stopped Ruining My Body Image

Newsletter issue #1

Mar 28, 2021Read
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Personal Essays1 min

Welcome to Realistic Body Therapist Newsletter

Welcome to my newsletter, I’m Realistic Body Therapist - Zeynep. I'm writing about things I needed to hear when I was at my lowest, struggling with my…

Feb 3, 2021Read

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